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Why is life so Hard ?

Today I called a nursing home in Tuson AZ after learning that the man who is my birth father is alive and does not have much longer to live, why should I even care or call him ! What has he ever done for me these last 53 years of my life? The last time I ever laid eyes on this man was though a glass door and he said go away I do not want to see you or your brother ( I was 7 and my brother 8 ) that hurt but I got past it and then I found his phone number 30 years ago and called him thinking this time he will want to hear from me I was excited to tell him about his grandchildren after just adopting our last child a son.
So what does he say to me as I hold the phone to my ear; I hear these angry words.
(I have not spoken to you in 17 years and will keep it that way)
so why do I even care to tell him that he has 5 granchildren and 8 great grandchildren!
I called anyway thinking that it was gonna be easy NOT the nurse says she will give him a message, I am fearful and feel like I am 5 years old. This man kidnapped me and my brother when he was 4 and I was 3 and took us to Mexico and he raped me! Why do I care why do I even want to say to him to free my self from all the years of pain and say I FORGIVE YOU then both of us can be free to die without regrets. Will it loose something within myself one and for all?